I did it! Finally got up the nerve to do the one thing I have been in deep contemplation over-taking a risk. January 27, 2013 I kissed my momma and daddy goodbye, spent one last night in my room, and took off. It is a scary ass thing to do, but a bold and liberating one as well. Never in a million years- okay maybe not a million- did I think I would pack my life into three duffle bags and come across the country to live in a state I have never been too-California.
A place I have only read and heard about is now my home and I am determined to make it. I kind of have to since my parents looked me in my face and said don't come back ( not exactly that harsh, but you get what I am saying). I don't mind though, I actually look forward to laying my own foundation. Sitting around in an office, staring out windows and wishing I could do more, was not going to cut it. Coming out here was more than just a way to go beyond the familiar, but a real opportunity to find myself and Mary Tyler Moore it out. I have got to see if I can do me on my own. Soo, I took my own advice and said " fuck it, it's now or never" and right now I can proudly say, I am sitting in Oakland, California writing!
Sure, there are somethings to be vexed about-like finding a job- but I think its best to keep in mind all the wonderful aspects of life and this move, instead of viewing life as a glass half empty. As cliche as it is, I find that keeping positive is the best policy. Of course there will be hardship, but when is all just rainbows, glitter and daydreams of dancing onstage with my boo Prince?? In life, there will be challenges. Life doesn't care about your age or lot in life- it just decides when it wants to happen to you and mine thought now was the moment. Who am I to say no to that?
With that said, I hope that everyone who has the burning urge to get up and go, just dives in. Life isn't really a box of chocolates to me (especially since I have to be in the mood for chocolate, so when I get some, you are damn right I know what I am going to get), its more like a big body of water- you jump in and you either sink or swim. Your move doesn't have to be as drastic as picking up your life and moving it across country, it can be as simple as picking up a new hobby. Just do what feels right to your soul. I would strongly suggest a little preparation, but sometimes life hits you fast and you don't have the time to do that- I ain't judging.
I would like for people to be happy and feel more free in the decisions shaping your life. For me, this is where I not only want to be but NEED to be. Surrounded in the spirit of freedom fighters, art and creativity. I have been here for a day in half and I can already tell ya, it won't be all peachy, but it will be rewarding. The main goal must be to stay focused while enjoying the experience that is life, as much as I can!
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