The 9-5 was as long as it has been in a while. For 8 hours, my emotions peeked and dropped. It was like an emotional menopause- hot then cold then hot again- and I was uneasy. To make matters worse, I couldn't tell you what the problem was, although I do have a clue. Its that wonderful red dart that gets thrown into my mix once a month....every fucking month. Yup, my period. I kind of hate that its referred to as a period. I once had a significant other, if I can call him that, who asked me if I was "on my flow"- my flow??? Don't know why, but that term annoys me too. Actually, at this point, everything annoys me. I am not here to list my annoyances though, I just want to express how awful a menstrual cycle is and how as a woman, I have to hide it and walk around like I'm not bleeding and in discomfort. For starters, shit pops off BEFORE you even start to "flow". Your back hurts, your uterus is doing flips and karate chops, your head hurts and your emotions are on 1000. Point is, you don't know if you are coming or going. To top it off, you have to go on about your day as if everything is normal when you just wanna lay in your bed and relax.
As a woman, I honestly feel as though I should not have to do a damn thing when I am menstruating. In fact, I should be pampered and spoiled and given wine through out the day in honor of my womb and the things I go through. That's right, my womb should be honored and my body should be rested. I don't know how many times I have wished a menstrual cycle upon men just so they would understand. When I go to work and I have to deal with people, I visualize myself screaming " MY VAGINA IS BLEEDING. Please leave me alone". But, we know that would be "inappropriate". So instead, I go about my life pretending everything is confetti cake icing, shoving sanitary napkins and tampons into pockets and holes where they can't be seen, so that other people aren't uncomfortable - and by other people, I mean men. Ain't that a bitch, I'm the one bleeding and cramping and I have to worry about a man's comfort. I think that from this point on, I won't act like I am ashamed of menstruation. Its a normal part of life. I am a woman and having a cycle is a large part of what makes me a female. I can only hope that one day, all females rebel against this terrible assault against our femininity by no longer hiding something that is so natural. I also hope, that one day, a law of some sort is created that gives women a spa trip during our "special season". OK, that isn't really gonna happen, but damn can I at least get a few days off from the world so I can chill and recoup??
Be Love, Peace and Light Ya'll
Be Love, Peace and Light Ya'll
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